Dark Year

Log

This year is drawing to an end. What a dark year it has been....full stop. You can see it from the fact that mainly I've been able to express through these twisted poems.

X-Day

Log


Another X-Day almost repeating the visions of last year.

Revolve of Dream

Poem

I like to dream
I'm dreaming now
you are dreaming too
maybe we could dream together

I like to sleep
but tonight I can't
nothing will knock me out
it's this headache again, again

I learned to lust aftershock value
I learned to lust after evolution
and revolution - burn the believers
I feel no fear

These four bars illuminating obscenities
No cohesion - just rawness for sure

I need to get near the surface
to dig myself deeper
Like a flower
become a monster

Meet up my friend
the teen spirit - evolution
I'm dreaming again though
My heart just beating a bit faster


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Three Roses

Poem

1st rose to wake the soul
to rise above the faceless crowd

2nd rose to lock up the memory
to give the kiss on the palm of the hand

3rd rose to reveal the riddle
to show the beauty of the mind

Stars Are Killers

Philosophy

It has been a month since a great revelation for myself (might one day publish it as well). I feel new. As I mentioned something was born inside, and I see the world in such a different way. All in a positive light.

I also saw a dream last night. I was in a house. The house suddenly turned into a hostage site when a masked man took it by storm. I attacked him fighting for my freedom, and was able to cut his leg with a knive (similar to the "Pet Semetary" film's end when the kid cut his granpa's at the end). This did not help so I turned on for a different tactic. I talked him and showed a friendly love. Turned out that was exactly what he was looking for in the house...hmm...

Finally a quote by Andrew Loog Oldham:

Stars must be killers, always striking first and fast. They have to be totally obsessed and paranoid about this year's vision of themselves that it's beyond obsession - it's reality, logical and natural. There is no remorse when they kill, no regrets when they pimp and no shame when they whore."

Yesterday / Today

Poem

Eyes, the mirror of soul
cryes, for me to be
that's what they say
that is the way

Expression, the moment of
the truth, crawls inside
killing me and twisting
my spine into a misfit

In my space, come inside
is a light of tomorrow
Open up and
you'll understand

Eyes, open up today
life, is no more gray
It is simple don't you know
now my feelings flow

Look into me
and you will see
that there is no lies
I say it with my eyes

After the light
is revealed to me
Now I found what I've
been searching for

Yesterday I died
Today I'm born again

Fragile Beauty

Poem

There is a beautiful mind
radiating the idea of rose
so fragile, so beautiful
easy to be blown away

The rose is so white,
soft like silk, pure like milk
The beauty is so fragile
red fury shall tear it apart

Wont the beauty of it all
stand proud and tall
cause even in mids of night
its darkest just before the dawn

But you know what I say,
that beautiful mind is what I shall gain
to open the pedals, pick up this rose
even thou its against all the odds

Roll down the window
smell the open air
drive me faster
hit it and freeze the fair

I'm a passenger of this girl
passing worlds, going around
literally, sexyally
in a whirlwind of time

Dreamers

Poem

Take the first steps after the rain
at the dawn when small drops tickle your toes
How to know is it real or is it magic?

If this clock keeps ticking away
will time be hesitated
of all the minutes that were taken away?

Come closer, let me whisper it in your ear:
shine for the sun, let the drops fall
Until its time for a wake up call

The One

Poem

Like a marble from an ancient world to a Viking
she stands to give the inspiration of relief for a cynical man.

Guiding the evolution and light
to the place where the sun never shine.

Pleasure that cause lethal addiction of aesthetics
is found on the eyes resembling blue stars.

Relaxing In Finland

Log

After three weeks of non-stop work in Ministry of Sound (oh yeah, got a bar job on December) and EMEA, I came to chill it out in Finland. Though this slowness is killing my momentum and I don't like it at all. Otherwise, met up with Velcra and saw them live for the first time in my life, after resigning. It was good to see them, and we still bond.

All this has made me think about my future. I think it is in mixing of visual art and music. I also got an idea on my final year work. Research on how visual art could be used in the branding of music.